“If you accept a limiting belief, then it will become a truth for you.” Louise Hay
Six years ago I wasn’t in the right location. Five years ago my problem was lack of knowledge. Four years ago it was time. Three years ago it was money. Two years ago it was money, location and time. A year and a half ago I packed away my dream of opening a wellness center. I filed it under “maybe someday” when everything falls into place and sort of assumed that someday might just never come. Maybe it just wasn’t in the cards for me. On to the next idea…
It’s funny now, to think about myself almost 2 years ago, fully entrenched in corporate life, spending evenings and weekends researching and planning and day dreaming of my someday business venture. I looked at my business plan the other day. The one I had written to submit to the bank in hopes of receiving financing. It’s a scary piece of literature! I can still feel the fear I was experiencing when I wrote it. What if I start this business venture and no one comes? What if I can’t pay my bills? Most businesses fail in the first 3 years, ya know… I went to the bank with fingers crossed, not really believing they would help me. And they didn’t. It was the pit of the economic downturn and they weren’t lending to anyone, least of all a scared-ass girl handing over her business plan with a shaky hand and a wavering voice.
But the problem wasn’t the finances. The real problem was me not really believing that I could do it. Or that I deserved it.
You see, I’d spent 15 years making other people successful. Making their business run better. Making them grow and become profitable. But I didn’t believe that I could do that for myself.
That business plan that I’d spend hours and days and late nights and weekends working on ~ perfecting! ~ it got stuffed away in a filing cabinet. I had to come up with another plan.
Three months later when I left my corporate job I still had no idea what I was going to do. I just knew I had to make a change. I wanted to work in the wellness world. But how exactly I would make it happen or what it would look like I had no idea. All I knew was that I had to make money. I had to pay bills. I had to support myself.
I wasn’t sure how I would do it. And to this day I’m not really sure how I did for that first year. A wish and a prayer was sometimes all I had to get the bills paid.
I laugh now because 18 months ago I was making a good salary, had a company car, health insurance, a 401k and no debt. And I was scared to death to take the risk of starting my own business. I didn’t really believe that I could make it. And the excuse I used to get out of giving it a go was that I couldn’t afford to do it. I laugh now because 6 weeks ago when I peeked in the windows of what is now Holistic Lakewood I had no idea how I was going to make it happen. I did not have a bank account full of cash waiting to be dumped into some new business venture. I didn’t know how much it would cost or how I would pay for it. Truth be told, I didn’t care. I knew deep, deep down that this was my time. That I could and I would make my dream a reality. So what did I do?
I leaned into it. I leaned into the fear and the uncertainty. I leaned into the challenge and the excitement. And a miracle occurred. All the pieces fell into place. It was as if all I had to do was say “YES!” and someone else took care of the rest.
So what was different 6 weeks ago from 18 months ago? I was. I had cast aside my limiting beliefs and chosen to believe that anything was possible. And so it was.
Sitting in my office writing this I get goose bumps as I think about the fluidity and ease with which this all came together. And the speed. Oh the speed! Like the blink of an eye. From zero to open in 4 weeks. I couldn’t have done it without all the years of experience opening, operating and marketing other people’s businesses.
I believe things happen in their own time for a reason. This was my time. Thanks for being here to share it with me!
Got to go. (Time to prep for my next client.)